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A Scapegoat In a Four-Cornered Room Oh please!A Scapegoat In a Four-Cornered Room by ~hannahlee11
Don't you dare sit back
and act
like it's all my fault.
Like I'm the reason for all your issues.
You were always fucked up.
We were best friends.
I trusted you.
I helped you.
Yet, you used me as a scapegoat
to blame someone
other than yourself.
Now you sit in a four-cornered room
spouting out your problems.
Waiting for the next depressant
to inhibit your pain
before you can further
you're contemplations of an early silence.
While all I can do is wait
in fear that you'll go through with it.
And I couldn't stop you,
or help you
like I did before.
I couldn't be there for you
like I was before.
The Paranoia of an Emotional Hallucination The paranoia sets inThe Paranoia of an Emotional Hallucination by ~hannahlee11
And the questions arise.
Does he really care?
Or is he just pretending?
Does he really want me?
Or does he want me gone,
But he just doesn't know how to do it?
Does he really love me?
Or is he just trying to make me smile?
I've been lied to,
cheated,
defeated,
hurt,
and broken down
Into little pieces
of a self-deprecated mess
that twists and turns
trying to put itself back together
like an inane puzzle.
Hiding behind false dispositions
I tell myself that you care,
that you're telling the truth.
That I'm just being ludicrous
and paranoid.
My past relationships
give proof that
I have
The Bouts of Stormy Weather The bouts of warfare begin within.The Bouts of Stormy Weather by ~hannahlee11
I can't let the depression win.
Those spiteful words that hurt as they touch
Coming out a bit too much.
I wear this artificial skin that hides it all,
So I won't fall.
The precautions I've taken,
So I won't be mistaken.
For what is real and what is fictitious.
I begin to feel malicious.
And I want to be left alone
As the anger begins to rise.
And my tears won't compromise
With my mind yelling, "Stop!I won't be shown."
But the tears run down,
And I begin to drown
As everything bubbles out.
And my emotions are renewed throughout.
I pull myself together,
As I wait for more stormy weather.
Failure I'm terrified of failing them.Failure by ~hannahlee11
I'm terrified of letting them all down,
Because I know I will.
The anxiety I feel when I see their faces kills me.
I have to prove myself to them.
Prove that I'm intelligent enough,
Prove that I'm kind enough,
Prove that I'm brave enough.
I'm tired of trying to be something I'm not.
I'm not a genius,
I'm not an angel,
I have fears that I can't seem to overcome.
I am in no way perfect.
My striving to be perfect will,
In the end,
Be my downfall.
And they'll watch me fail.
Those disappointed faces that will watch me fall.
If I Jumped Off Of A Bridge Her cold, pale face calls my nameIf I Jumped Off Of A Bridge by ~Aito136
Once we meet, I'll feel no pain
These stairs seem to stretch on forever
But, nothing will stop us from being together
The lights, they blur as the sirens ring
But it's all blocked out as she calls my name
It feels like I'm floating, as light as a feather
This decision could only make things better
The angel's feathers, the demon's scales
Guide me on my way to hell
My shackles gone, I'll take my throne
Yet you'll still covet your chains of bone
You pray for salvation, your pray for life
But little do you know, you've been blinded by the light
Take the jump and follow me
Pray for death to set y
Standing On My Own No need for intimacyStanding On My Own by ~Aito136
No need to set me free
I'm all that I've got left now
But to no king shall I bow
I will not lose this fight
I'll have my flag sail high
If I die before I wake
Tell Satan I'm taking his place
I may be alone
But I'm not weak
I'll climb the mountain
I'll reach the peak
The fires burn my flesh
The flood drowns me to death
The road less traveled is a beaten path
I won't end up like the rest
I can feel my blood boiling
I can kiss the sky
The parasites attack, eating at me
But I won't die
Faster, stronger
You'll have to hit me much harder
I won't back down
You won't see me fall down
I know what you
The Gallifreyan Nursery Rhyme Zagreus sits inside your headThe Gallifreyan Nursery Rhyme by ~TeenDalek
Zagreus lives among the dead
Zagreus sees you in your bed
And eats you when you're sleeping.
Zagreus comes; Zagreus goes
Zagreus knows your darkest woes
Zagreus watches as you grow
'Til the jump of faith you're leaping
Zagreus claims you for his own
Zagreus wants you all alone
Zagreus makes you weep and moan
As through delusion you're creeping
Zagreus knows the dream will end
Zagreus knows each turn and bend
Zagreus for himself can fend
But his tears through space are seeping
Zagreus dreams, Zagreus mimes
The puppet master at the end of the line
Zagreus is the end of time
So we explain
Thrilled | You ask me to tell you about me and this is me. I am me nothing more nothing less. I'm just a girl thats living her life like no other. I'm just somebody curious about life's mysteries, but aren't we all. I live in the moment and only regret things I didn't do when I had the chance. I'm just trying to make my mark on history. |
Sta.sh
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"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
And airplanes that crash into oceans and devour bears thoughts!
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If sorrow was paper,I would throw it away.
If happiness was water,I would drink it.
If dreams were immortality,I would live forever.
Why can't it be that way?
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"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
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If sorrow was paper,I would throw it away.
If happiness was water,I would drink it.
If dreams were immortality,I would live forever.
Why can't it be that way?
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"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
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If sorrow was paper,I would throw it away.
If happiness was water,I would drink it.
If dreams were immortality,I would live forever.
Why can't it be that way?
--
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
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If sorrow was paper,I would throw it away.
If happiness was water,I would drink it.
If dreams were immortality,I would live forever.
Why can't it be that way?
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...in a perpetual state of unease but delighting in the fear and joy of discovering myself... Peace
--
Joe Roberts [link]